Little fall = Big panic

They say that becoming a parent changes you completely, boy were they right.
Last Thursday, I was downstairs with the kids getting them ready to play outside (anyone with kids knows that getting ready to go outside in the winter is a planned event of the day) I was helping Ryan with his gloves when I heard a thud, looked over to see Lee getting up off the floor by our wet bar area. Taking another look, I see blood gushing out of a small hole on his head. In the second it took me to reach him, blood was covering the right side of his face, making it impossible for him to open his eye. Never had I seen so much blood. And being a former first aid and CPR trained day care worker, I know that crying right away is a good thing, but with Lee just standing up with a blank look on his face, panic over took me. All the questionable scenarios flew into my head. With a, "don't move", demand for Jason and Ryan, I covered Lee's head with my shirt. Talking to Lee he finally started crying, and when he started he didn't stop. I kept telling myself to calm down but the more I said it, the more I panicked. He soaked through, not 2, but 3 hand towels, after my shirt. All the while trying to get a hold of Dan, who at that exact same time, was cutting down a tree at work, so he could not hear or feel his phone.

Long story short, Dan ended up taking him to Urgent Care, where Lee received liquid stitches (to prevent scarring), from tripping and hitting his head on the corner of the wet bar.

I felt a little silly that night, reacting the way I did. I am good at staying calm, cool and collected. Or at least I was. Working in day care for 8 years prior to becoming a mom, I saw it all. From the bead shoved so far up the nose you couldn't see it, to the allergic reaction to a bee sting, I handled situations with ease. Why then, did I completely loose all sense of control with Lee? Was it the amount of blood, was it the blank stare, was it Jason and Ryan standing so still they looked liked statues, or was it simply because I am now a mom.
They say that becoming a parent changes you completely, boy were they right.