Motherhood...

Wake up to Jason's feet running to my room, it's 6:24a.m. I try to get him back to sleep, but he wants a cup of milk. So I get up, change his diaper, get him milk. Put him on the couch to watch Curious George, I go lay down in bed. 7:02 I hear Lee, with a big sigh I get up wondering what the problem is seeing I was just up feeding him at 5:30. Go to his room, pick him up and he starts to go to the bathroom. Wait for him to finish, change him, and get him another bottle. He is wide awake now and smiling, Jason in the mean time has gone to the bathroom, get him a new diaper and clothes on. Now he is hungry, get him toast with peanut butter and a banana. All the while hearing Ryan talking in his crib. Go and get him, he has gone to the bathroom, change him and get clothes on. Go into the kitchen, Jason has smeared his toast all over the table, the smell of peanut butter lingering in the air. Put Ryan in the high chair, clean up Jason and table. Get Ryan breakfast, pick up Lee seeing he has been crying for the last 10 minutes. Calm him down, he falls asleep. I want to get the bathroom cleaned, so I put cleaner in the toilet and go throw the rugs outside. Ryan's done with breakfast, clean up and let him down. Seeing Lee is asleep I decide to take a shower. Come out to find Ryan on the computer desk, papers all over, computer on, with some weird 'help and support' thing on the screen. Discipline Ryan, clean up his mess. Hear Jason upstairs in the frig, go up and get him a snack. Remembering I want to clean the bathroom, go in and scrub the toilet. Lee is awake. Get him and play with the boys for a while. Time for lunch, get Ryan and Jason a sandwich, get Lee a bottle. Everyone happy again. Send Jason and Ryan downstairs to play while I clean up lunch. Put Lee in swing. Remembering I want to clean the bathroom, go and spray the mirrors. Hear Jason say 'oh no mommy' I run downstairs to find Ryan sitting in the exersaucer(stuck) and Jason holding a pink marker, get closer and see the exersaucer is colored pink. Get Ryan out and discipline Jason. Realizing Ryan is ready for nap, I bring him up and lay him down. Lee is crying, pick him up and try to get him to sleep, doesn't want to, go back downstairs and deal with Jason. He, still crying from time out, is ready for a nap. Lay him down. Now back to Lee. He wont calm down, try everything, bottle, swing, carrier, crib, end up just walking around with him for 35 minutes until finally falling asleep. Lay him down. Remembering I want to clean the bathroom, go and find the spray on the mirrors all dripped down. Respray and wipe clean, seeing myself in the mirror, I remember I haven't done my hair or make up, quick go and make myself up grabbing a bite to eat. Take out the garbage and see the rugs outside, quick shake them out, and wipe up the bathroom floor. Hear Jason coming up the stairs, my big boy who always needs cuddled when he wakes up. Sit on the couch with him, read books and do puzzles. Hear Ryan, go get him, he is stinky again, change and cuddle him. Go downstairs to play trucks with them, end up getting the legos out having them all over the floor. Hear Lee. Go get him and feed him a bottle. The other boys following me wherever I go. Remembering the bathroom, I clean the sink with Lee in one arm. Jason and Ryan driving me crazy(playing with toilet paper and putting hand prints on my clean mirrors) I put in a video for them to watch. The movie only holding interest with Jason, I put Ryan in the high chair with a snack, still holding Lee. Jason, seeing Ryan with a snack decides he wants one too. Turn the video off, get Jason a snack. Put Lee in the swing only long enough to clean up snack. Send the boys down stairs again, hoping for the best, and try to figure out what to make for supper. Get things going and Put Lee to sleep at the same time. Go down stairs and try to clean up a little. 4:28p.m. help has arrived, Daddy's home.

As I go through my day of diapers, tears, laughs, bottles...and then sit here at night in the quiet, everyone happy, bellies full, and in their warm beds, I have to first sigh, then laugh and thank God for my chance at motherhood and pray I am doing something right.

Did I mention that I did get the bathroom clean, and the pink marker Jason found was permanent!!!